Friday, June 15, 2007
Yeay, I'm finally back from KL. But then again, I did'nt even mention I was going. But whatever okay. IF I felt you're important enough I would have told you anyway. but thats if we happened to talk during the few days before I left. Well, if we did talk and I did'nt mention anything, it simply means you're unimportant. Okay, maybe not.Anyhow, the trip was a-ok. I got to see my mum!! (: And leaving her today was such a heart pain. ): So here i am again, alone and lonely in a house filled with cats. Even my cats have given up on me. They don't listen to me anymore. Sad is'nt it. I wanna stand under your umbrella. I hate home for one simple reason -my mum is'nt around. its not the same, you know. )):I thought I said once, that we should'nt meet the same people anymore. I know nothing's happening yet, but I feel this fear overwhelming me. Its dumb yes, but I can't stop myself from feeling, can I? And I've been hiding this fear of the uncertainty from everyone. I wish I can tell someone how I feel but I know you'll say I'm crazy. You might not tell me straight to my face, cuz you're afraid of hurting me. So you tell someone else, who is'nt supposed to know anything. But oh fuck you, you've just hurt me. Even when you think I don't know. You think, I don't know.I don't want to go on and on, on how fucked up I always HAVE to feel. So this is goodbye.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
3:39 AM
