SAVE ME; someone's bound to hear my cries.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Everyone's talking about how i can't can't be your love.

Yesterday I met Atiqah at Siglap and we went to get our pictures taken for tp's enrolment shits. I must say, we both looked good thanks to the old apek who took atiqah's baby picture also. haha. Afterwhich we had lunch at pizza hut. thanks to student meal and my no-longer-valid student pass. (: Rishi and Xy joined us there. rishi started working at ccsg!! how mother f cool is that! now ccsg is filled with sick people i swear! but how not, i love them all. (:

We went to VideoEzy after that, spending quite sometime there cuz Atiqah was looking for this movie she watch some years ago on tv but she have no idea whatsoever the tittle. how to find right? LOSER! But i hafta say the storyline is pretty interesting, about a pair of twins or best friends. one's prettier or more superior than the other and thus the other is deeply annoyed and kills her best friend/sister and she started to become a seriel killer? (sounds familiar? irony, is'nt it? maybe i should turn into a seriel killer too eh?)

I then left for work at 6pm whereas atiqah started at 7pm. That whore has a dick! I swear i so mother f saw it! But its too short so don't bother! HAHAHA. and yoyo, was telling us stories on how he met his 4 gfs. hahaha. he's sucha a hilarious dude, i swear. and he kept on telling me that this cusomer, a quite pretty girl (who was with her bf) likes him cuz she apparently always look at him. like what the hell right. ahaha.

atiqah: ey i want my nametag back![while touching the nametag on atiques top]
atique: don't touch me!!
yoyo: i want to touch![doing the disgusting touching thingy]
atiqah&atique: WTF! HAHAHA!

I did something really stupid a few days back. I slept at about 3 am in the morning knowing that i badly wanna wake up early the next day. Why i wanted to wake up early? Cuz i wanted to go to east coast or pasir ris beach, early in the morning, on my own, to think. So what I did was, i set my alarm clock at 7am, 7.30am, 8am AND 8.30am. Did i wake up? OF COURSE NOT! HAHAHAHA. LOSER OR WHAT!! Well, i woke up close to noon and i now agree with everyone who calls me a pig (when it comes to sleeping). (:

okay i'm almost done talking nonsense here and oh btw, i'm in KL now! SHOPPING BABY! (: Bye lovess.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
9:13 PM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

why do you have to be so nice? its impossible to ignore you.

(I just hope you realised that I did try)

and here i am again, heading to the old familiar place, where we met and will meet once again.

my sincere apologies.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
12:55 PM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

I hurt myself today,

to see if i still feel,

I focus on the pain,

the only thing thats real.

The needle tears a hole,

the old familiar sting,

try to kill it all away,

but I remember everything.

What have I become,

my sweetest friend.

Everyone i know,

goes away in the end.

And you could have it all,

my empire of dirt.

I will let you down,

I will make you hurt.

I wear this crown of thorns,

upon my liars chair,

full of broken thoughts,

I cannot repair.

Beneath the stains of time,

the feelings dissapear.

You are someone else-

I am still right here.

What have I become,

my sweetest friend.

Everyone I know,

goes away in the end.

And you could have it all,

my empire of dirt.

I will let you down,

I will make you hurt.

If I could start again,

a million miles away,

I will keep myself,

I would find a way.

- johnny cash's hurt.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
8:49 AM

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

How did sentosa day went? It was ok-ay i should say but not as happy as how i hoped it would be. But no doubt, i had fun with those crazy idiots. We went to pahlawan beach cuz apparently its the nicest? We played beach soccer! Hahaha that was hilarious! Atiqah, Xy, Daryl and myself were in one team and we called ourselves the pussy(s). So '_', i know. Nadiah, Alif and Rishi were in another team and they called themselves dicks? So the tak senonoh but whatever la ok. and btw, we pussy won! HAHA.

After a while of soccer, we all went for a swim! (Not exactly, since not everyone can swim, haha) It was pretty fun in the water and we 3 girls played truth or dare. And if we don't tell the truth we would have to strip. '_'. Which we did, btw. haha. Only took off our tops la so don't get excited. lol. We couldnt finish the game cuz they boys looked annoyed, like they wanna join us but they know they can't. Lol. After that the boys went to bath and change while Nadiah, Atiqah and myself layed down on the sand. Peaceful, i say. but i'm so f-ing tanned now, i swear!

So after sometime we girls went back into the water cuz it was too hot but something '_' happened to Atiqah. Haha sorry babe but really, sometimes these aunties can get really annoying! ;) So anyway we then went to shower and clean up and everything. I swear i love the toilet! Like there's a different place for shower, a different place for changing and diff place for toilet activities. Lol. If only east coast have that, I swear i could go everyday man! Haha, right.

After beach-ing, we went to Sarpino's pizza to eat lunch. And then we walked walked walked until i dunno where, i really cannot remember. Haha. We wanted to watch the show at the musical fountain but the show starts at 7.40pm and we still had like 2 hrs to go. So we decided to watch a movie at vivo city's golden village!

Paris, Je T'aime is a wonderful movie and definately a must watch for everyone! Its made up of 18 short love stories and when i say love stories, i don't mean romantic boy-girl relationships. Paris, Je T'aime covers every aspect of love there can be, from every walks of lives. Plus, its also a funny movie. A movie that makes you go awww and laugh at the right moments, i so wanna watch it again!

okay bye loves.

p/s: no pictures from sentosa, cuz well, no one brought a camera. (:

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
7:40 PM

Friday, March 16, 2007

Yesterday was a happy day!!

The lovely Atiqah was supposed to wake me up at 11am yesterday, but NO! She woke me up close to twelve. Cuz apparently she woke up late. We were supposed to meet Farhan but he made up some shit about not being able to leave his house cuz no one's home. Which is like, bull's shit, if you ask me. But whatever.

We went to collect Atiqah's passport at lavender and there were like millions of people there. We waited pretty long, watching mr bean and discussing ccs, like as if its a very interesting place. Not like its not interesting though, but whatever. Afterwhich, we went to Marina Square, (have i ever mentioned that i love that place?)where we met Rishi and Daryl. So the four of us went for lunch at swenson's. We decided to catch a movie next and I dunnoe why but we decided on Stomp The Yard.

I have to admit, I was'nt keen on watching it at first cuz i figured it would have too much dancing scenes in it. But well, it was a pretty good movie i suppose. In fact, the moves are actually cool, i like. (: And even though the actors all look the same and sound alike, one guy was pretty cute. Yeah, only one guy, so too bad.

The movie ended close to 9pm and we wanted to walk to the fountain of wealth but ended up at some Bonsai Garden at Suntec city. It was a nice dark place and the four of us sat down for ice cream. We crapped and all, holding each other's hands, trying to seduce and turn each other on. But really, Atiqah and Darly tried it on me but I just was'nt turned on. I had no feelings at all! Weird or what!!

And at the end of the day, my stomach cramps became worst -partly from laughing too much. But because yesterday was a happy day, so I really don't care!

Today was a semi-happy day! Cuz I met Atiqah at about 4.30pm and we went to Siglap Ntuc to get stuffs for tmr! We then went to starbucks to meet Rishi, Alif, Daryl and Xy! I love those my idiots cuz they make me smile! ((: And semi-happy cuz I had to leave at about 6pm cuz i had work! Work was okay but but but '_' is so '_' so i was feeling rather '_'. But still, i love my semi-happy days too!

Tmr is going to be a happy day cuz tmr is picnic-at-sentosa day! And right now, I'm baking a brownie-cake! I even managed to get a cake box, courtesy of the good people at coffee club siglap! (: I love ccs la ok. hoho. So tmr, is going to be really a happy day cuz there's going to be a surprise! How mother fucking cool is that! But I don't think I'm going to reveal what surprise its going to be cuz someone might just read it! And then it won't be a surprise anymore!!!

Okay, more pictures from last saturday!!

Okay! GOOD NIGHT loves! (:

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:59 PM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Today I went for a mini- shopping trip, so I'm very very happy. But how I wish I had worked a lil more last month! Then I would be richer now! ((:

The funny thing is, I think I'm addicted to Topshop. I bought a few things there and now I'm super sure that I'll be getting that pair of skinny jeans by this week!! Hows exciting! I wanted to get the black pinafore from Dorothy Perkins too, but they only have it in size 14 so like sedih. But I made my mummy happy. Haha, I bought her a handbag from Dorothy Perkins! (Probably a way to thank her for letting me stay in Singapore without actually thanking her!) See I'm a good daughter, I tell you. And, online shopping is addictive, i'm telling you!!

On the heaviest note, auntie RED came to visit and she's sucha mess. So annoying. ):

Date with Atiqah and Farhan tomorrow! Yeah, our good old mat! How interesting it would be!! ((:

-if you promise not to fade away, never fade away.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:47 PM

Monday, March 12, 2007

I think my golden's very mad at me cuz i scolded him for disturbing my miss po.

and i'm sad cuz he seems sad. but miss po was really angry and she was like screaming away and the neighbours might complain if i had'nt stopped the fight.

Hello, cats have got feelings too ok.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
2:05 AM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

I felt the sudden urge to update properly here but suddenly I really realise I don't have much to talk about. How interesting. But anyhow, I did appeal for Tp's biotech and then i decided to withdraw the appeal and stick with chem engine, unless my dae appeal for vet tech gets approved. Don't ask me why, thank you.

And I freakingly cannot wait for school to start and I heard it would be on the 23rd of April. Thats like more than a month away please. What a long time coming. ): My life now practically revolves around Siglap. Siglap, not CC siglap. So its not exactly a bad thing you know. Lying down in the middle of the huge field, watching the sky, trying to find the perfect star with the perfect company is love, you know.

I've been tooo bored that also i want to retake my olvl maths this year. I'm just extremely not satisfied with the C. I mean really, i'm not trying to say i should get like the perfect score or whatever. But this is how it feels like to know that you could have done better but you destroyed the chance yourself. Plus if you ask me, the only fucking reason why I could'nt make it into vet tech is cuz of my maths grade. And I was thinking of applying for vet tech again next yr, (with my new maths grade) and if i make it into vet tech i might decide to quit chem engine. But if i feel like chem engine is the right one for me then i'll stick with it. It's just an option, you know. Plus a better maths grade would'nt hurt my olvls cert at all. Many of you won't understand my stand but its okay, I don't need you to. (:

ANYWAY, you guys should catch The Messengers! Watched it at cathay with Atiqa, Rishi and Xy just now and I thought the movie's good. The storyline's different from most ghost stories and I love/hate how certain parts of the movies comes so unexpectedly, it makes you jerk on your sit. And believe it or not, for the first time of my life, i screamed while watching a movie. Haha. I tell you, certain scenes are too scary and you would'nt want them to happen to you at all. But the ending was slightly disappointing cuz it was pretty dumb how the body of the idiot disappeared with the ghost. Like seriously, the police don't want to collect the body for inspections meh? But But But the little boy, Ben, was really really cute! i wish i can hide him in my closet. Right!!

So haha, after the movie we went to Bedok Corner for dinner. Nadiah and Alif joined us there. I thought the ayam penyek was bad. The ayam's not even penyek please. But I really don't know how ayam penyek are supposed to taste/look like you know, so i don't know still. haha. After dinner we walked all the way to Tanah Merah Mrt station and the walk was long but Rishi was being nice so he took photos of us walking all the way. Like a total camwhoring session i tell you. So then Atiqa, Nadiah and myself shared a cab home.

Yeah, CAB! Yet again. ):

Bad habit, I tell you.

My mum went for holiday with her friends yesterday and I miss her already. ): Even though it means I can stay out late, use the fucked up computer 24/7, leave my house with no one asking me where i'm headed to, wear anything i want without someone telling me to be a lil more modest, not feed the cats.... Okay no, I do feed my cats. haha. But yes, you get the drift. I miss my mum! ):

Okayyy, TWO pictures! (:

This could have been a nice picture of us, if i had not made that stupid lips pose. I did'nt know they were smiling la okay!!

Everyone trying to act sexay, lying down and such. Really, '_'.

AND WE'RE GOING FOR A PICNIC AT SENTOSA ON SATURDAY!! I hope everyone can make it though! Like everyone! And everyone means: Atiqa/ue, Nadiah, Radhea, Rishi, Alif, Xy, Daryl, Feeza and hopefully Soyah too. (And did i missed out anyone's name?) ((: And then I'll get to bake my brownies!!! HOW EXCITING! (=

Okay I think thats enough for now. (: Bye loves!

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:55 PM

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Okay so I got into TP's Chemical Engineering. Like how sedih please. I mean I badly want to get into Veterinary tech lah hello. Sent in the DAE letters since I cannot appeal through JAE appeal exercise. And the lady at the DAE booth was, well, encouraging in the weakest form. But I guess I'm okay with it you know! I got to accept the fact that I did'nt do well enough to get into a course, where people who got accepted in are like bloody 10 pointers. (and their mummys should be shot for not forcing their child to apply for a JC!)

I hear people saying that oh, chem engine is a good course and the market's good here and there. But siallah I don't see myself in it okay! Lol. I can try though, I think it really sounds cool and I'll get use to it, I suppose. And please don't ask me why I put it as my 3rd choice in the first place! Cuz obviously I had some interest in it, even though I now sound like I don't. Haha. I'm just very disappointed I did'nt get into Vet tech.

There goes my dream. There goes my childhood dream.

Only of course I know I can still go after my dream of becoming a veterinarian. I guess it sounds dumb to some of you but I love animals too much to let this dream go. I don't want to be anything else, I want to save animals. I don't care if humans want to die. Animals should be saved. I want to be just like Steve Irwin! ((:

Okay don't laugh at me.

And I'm not about to let go of my dreams! I think I'm going to appeal for TP's Biotech course, where students can study veterinary science during the final year. And a third year student just got a place in an overseas university to do a degree in veterinary science. So hows that.

But now, I'm getting use to the whole Chem engine stuffings. You know, engine maths sounds cool! and some people say chem engine have very little girls. So maybe I can find my boy-best friend there you see, girl best friend are just a hassle cuz girls are bitchy and I think I already have the best ever girl-best friends!

HAHA.

I now know why people think I'm crazy.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:23 PM

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel

I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:53 PM

Sunday, March 04, 2007

After 6 days of work, I'm free tomorrow! YES! See my life does not revolve around Coffee Club Siglap alone ok.

And pizza hut by the stars with loves was love.

((:

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:34 PM

Inside i hope you know i'm dying.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
12:50 AM

Saturday, March 03, 2007

You people probably know how much I love cats and this video was just... amazing! Okay press pause on my blog song to watch this video properly. ((:

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
8:23 PM