Friday, July 28, 2006
i think i think too much.so, what do you think?
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:20 PM
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Tough, you think you've got the stuffYou're telling me and anyoneYou're hard enoughYou don't have to put up a fightYou don't have to always be rightLet me take some of the punchesFor you tonightListen to me nowI need to let you knowYou don't have to go it aloneAnd it's you when I look in the mirrorAnd it's you when I don't pick up the phoneSometimes you can't make it on your ownWe fight all the timeYou and I... that's alrightWe're the same soulI don't need... I don't need to hear you sayThat if we weren't so alikeYou'd like me a whole lot moreI know that we don't talkI'm sick of it allCan you hear me when I Sing, you're the reason I singYou're the reason why the opera is in meWhere are we now?I've got to let you knowA house still doesn't make a homeDon't leave me here aloneAnd it's you when I look in the mirrorAnd it's you that makes it hard to let goSometimes you can't make it on your ownSometimes you can't make itThe best you can do is to fake itSometimes you can't make it on your own
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:47 AM
Saturday, July 22, 2006
- : "Never fucking give up your dreams till you live them. It's DO OR DIE baby, and don't you ever forget it."OR are we just friends?i am still sustained by some kind of hope. But hope so enclosed in such inaccessible places that i now hesitate to call it hope. All that has happened has only proved one thing : i'm not as strong as i seem.Dear god. Let me pull through this rough patch of my life.I'm sorry.I really am.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:17 PM
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Life is a benumbing nightmare nightmare, although this waiting slowly brings acceptance of the inevitable. I am gradually beginning to think that I shall never see you again, that you would not come back, will never walk across me again. However, I go on living, with a weak burning flame of hope that one day, the wind will bring me back to you. Pertemuan kali ini pada diriku amat bererti. Tapi aku takut untuk berkata, bimbingkan berulangnya kesilapan.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
10:10 PM
i wish i can tell you the truth. But i'm afraid it might be too much for you to handle. i'm sorry. i wish i can tell you that no, its not ok.Random thought: i miss the east coast outing about this time last year. singing out lungs out. damn.baby when you're gone.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
4:04 PM
Friday, July 14, 2006
Days have been really long. But really. Who am I to complain. I know i've been blogging about how bad life may be. but I thank god everyday. Because he's always there. Sometimes I feel god's just too kind to me. If i cant handle this then i'll really should die something worst happen. Anyway, sometimes i think people actually like pain. People actually like to feel sad. Cuz maybe then people around would you know, talk about it. Try to solve the problem. But you refused to let them in. Argh, Sounds familiar? Haha. All i'm trying to say is, you really should make the best out of every situation. Life's not always great but hey don't fucking make it worse for you.
Maybe we should take a step back and reflect. Life's really not too bad.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
9:06 PM
Monday, July 10, 2006
I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
A girl who's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone
Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me
What's the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with
Tell me what does it mean?
I wanna run to you
I wanna run to you
Won't you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you
But if I come to you
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away?
I need you here
I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears
If you only knew how much...
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
12:21 AM
Everything is in such a terrible state that i dont even know where and how to start blogging. Like seriously, i think this is the worst i've ever been. And it all goes back to the great hatyai trip. i mean, i seriously enjoyed the trip. like one of the best ever. but it brings such -idunnohowtosay- memories. Painful and sweet. it brings a million questions. like why oh why do i fall for someone really easily? and how could two very different people caught my eye at the same time? And its funneh how i dont think about the other much at all. i'm such an ass, i know. I wish i can include names here. that would be easier. but the situation's so bad that would only kill me. anyway. i hate mixed signals. i mean why cant you just ask me? or tell me. dont go around asking my aunties or my MUM ah. sakit hati siak. and it hurts when everyone else is filling me with all this weird things. and oh come on. you know him more than to avoid me. ape siakkkk. maybe u should talk to him properly first. urgh.but anyway, - is OMG lah. haha. omg so wrong again. but he is like the fucking hottest guy i've ever met. but he sort of is the same as the above. urgh. mulut cakap benda mepek mepek boleh ah. and now that he's got my number, argh surprise me? hoho. i'm confused. but i think i filled the wrong name on that crush calculator shit. lol. argh mepek ah tu jantan. bleh.unrequitedlove.pardon me for the excessive use of malay words. anyway, tmr's malay olevel oral. haha.unrequited love. says:
*cara he speak
unrequited love. says:
cara he made me laugh
unrequited love. says:
cara he talk to me
unrequited love. says:
cara he talk to my mum
unrequited love. says:
cara he made everyone laughed
unrequited love. says:
cara his mum talked about him
unrequited love. says:
cara i am gila*cara is the way in malay. (:xoxonunu
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
12:14 AM
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
I wonder where you whereI wonder what your thinking about tonightI wonder Maybe your aloneMaybe you've been crying just like meI wonder I don't know why I lost your touch Maybe I wanted to be loved too much Too serious, too soon I wanted you to love me I wanted to be there for you like no one else before Too serious, too soon I wanted you to love meIt's been a rainy afternoon Now I'm Staring at the moon Thinking we got too serious, too soonI told you every dayI told you every night in every wayI love youMaybe you got scared Maybe I have nothing else to say But I love you So baby now my life's a messCause I'm cos I couldn't love you any lessToo serious, too soon I wanted you to love me I wanted to be there for you like no one else before Too serious, too soon I wanted you to love meIt's been a rainy afternoon Now I'm Staring at the moon Thinking we got too serious, too soon Too soonIt's not right It's not fair It's in you baby cuts like a knifewhat if you were the love of my lifeToo serious, too soonI wanted you to love me I wanted to be there for you like no one else before Too serious, too soon I wanted you to love mewe got too serious to soonI wanted to be there for you like no one else beforetoo serious too soonI wanted you too love meIt's been a rainy afternoonNow I'm Staring at the moonThinking we got too serious, too soon
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
9:31 PM
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Wont be updating anytime soon. Life's a bitch. No one knows whats going on. Nobody knows it but me. Hatyai was a bitch. i should have stayed at home with my initial plan. but i guess everything happens for a reason. i leart that ignorance is bliss. but i dont want to be ignorant. cuz i want to know the truth. tsk. i typed a message but i've got no courage to send. argh. arafah's engagement this weekend. maybe i'll meet him there. ;( now that hurts. XOXONUNU (:
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
12:48 AM
