SAVE ME; someone's bound to hear my cries.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Every time I think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind

There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday

I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
12:04 AM

Saturday, February 18, 2006

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:10 PM

Friday, February 17, 2006

Do or die

Today was a very funneh day in school. We barely had any lessons. Oh wait, we had no lessons at all. Lol. There was all sorts of discussion going on in class with ms Teo. I guess 402's relationship with ms Teo has gone way better. Ok perharps that was not revelant. Then, what is? You tell me. LOL.

Basically, we had this IPPT excercise thing. i love to watch the video on it. haha. Anyway, we had to seal the classrooms and stuffings. and we were all left stuffy and sticky inside. I iniatially wanted to skip school but my parents are not in singapore so i figured i better go. Don't ask me why. i don't know. Lol. We also discussed Be-yourself-Day which we will be organising. must say we had a pretty good idea. won't mention it here but surely u guys would hear about it soon in school. I'm trying very hard to get local bands to perform. Haqiem's working on it too. Though he's not in 402. Anyway, his baby brother is the cutest little thing! So lovable. And that 8 months old boy has the same weight as my Mas. Haha. My Mas is handsome ok. Hurhur.

Meeting atiqa later today. She's out studying with nazeema. i'm suppose to call levan to discuss tmr and i owe kief a grilled chicken foldover. That guy ah. tsk. i cant believe i had to pay for a little favour. But nvm, looking forward on meeting him next week at Paya Lebar's Macs. Afterall, thats the exactly same place where i first meet bhumiband, prolly a year ago. :D.

Whoever told you that you'll never be what you want to be don't know nothing cause they'll never see, a little faith is better than a little lie.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
6:26 PM

Thursday, February 16, 2006

I've been very busy. I'm just updating to clear those rumours that i'm dead. Lol. Anyway, life's great. My world's a lighter blue and i'm frens with some incredible people. I dont care about all the shitty nothings anymore. i love Cherie and Sara big time. They changed my life and who they are, makes a difference. Definately.

So they'll be a gig at Temasek Sec this saturday. And Levan asked me out after that. (He offered to get me in for free again!) That guy is weird. haha. Like i said i dunno if can go and he's like he wont have time anytime else. and like when i'm free he's surely not free. Ronin's been very busy with i donno what. haha. And that they're leaving in May. And he said this exactly "i was thinking we could hang out anywhere for a couple of drinks. the problem is ronin members have been sponsored with 240 bottles of beer each and i'd like to actually get down to getting some drunk". Well, thanks alot. Only i dont drink. Lol. But nevermind. Maybe i'll go. Or i'll miss them soooo much when they leave for australiaaa. -_-. and then i said maybe i'll bring Atiqa along but he went like "hmmm, why dont you come alone?" And i'm like "what the hell?". haha. So i told him i doubt she'll come but i'll ask her anyway. And he said he'll call me to confirm. Tsk. What seh, levan? But oh, i'll get to listen to the new songs for ronin. I'll be first! Yay. i love levan, i love ronin. And oh, he ended the conversation with "lets get wasted". HAHA. you're nuts. No, i dont drink. Especially not beer.

There's a particular cute guy and he's incredible. Hmm? He's not very cute but he is cute. No, dont ask me who the hell he is. Cause i wont tell. HAHA. And i miss my poor Np guy. haha. But really, the Np guy story damn sad. Its not his fault he cant talk...hmmm?

Love.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
12:04 AM