SAVE ME; someone's bound to hear my cries.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

The reason why i've not been updating is that i've got so many things to update about i don't know where to start and where to end. Does that feed the queries? Anyway, since there too many, i'll use the touch and go method. You know, touch and go, like how they have it on the malaysia highways. Haha. Ok, thats random but please, i'm sure YOU get it. Well, since the last time i blogged, a few occasions, a few memories.

i'm not going to blog about anything in particular, but i feel i ought tell you guys whats happening in my life. Hence, : Sports day, Mosaic festival, The Sun's last gig, talking to a few people about stuffings, my 2nd maths tuition of the year, APM (taufik sucks), my brother's confession, f&n coursework, pepper's birthday (seeurealsoon!), still owe kief a foldover (realsoontoo!!), that girl in my class who has a ego comparatively as huge as mine, fuzzy wazzy, my report book and feeling down for not much a reason.

See, its really nothing much. To tell you the truth, my life's boring. And do even you believe it? its true, i've been trying to hide that fact from eversince i found it out. But what the heck, at least i have what i need. it sounds cliche but hey how many people actually tell that to themself when they need it the most? Hmm? Ok enough bullshiting already eh.

Oh ho, i promised myself i would blog about this: The other night or actually early morning, i was fighting insomnia. My aircon was on, so was the fan. So anyway, remind you it was 2.15am and i had been lying down for almost um, 2 hours? Yes, i spent two hours just thinking about things. And come on, there was no one i could talk to. Talking to myself in a dark room scares me much. i mean, some voice might just reply me? Lol. Anyhow, no, i didnt talk to myself but a sudden randon thought came to my mind. The Ultimate Cute Guy That I Have NOT Met. Like, you know i started imagining boys i know with a different nose, teeth, hairstyle, smile, way of talking, height and singing capabilities. Lol. And an image of a cute/perfect guy did appear. and well, i was looking when i realised. OMFG, i KNOW THAT GUY. haha. No, we dont know each other but i know him. i know him. i know him!!! i know one of his bandmates actually. His Drummer. Lol. in fact i was just talking to his drummer a few hours before. Haha. Funneh ah. i couldnt sotp laughing. i cant mention the band name. it would be too weird. lol. not like they're that big. but wtfh. guess who! LOL.

P/s: Hanna, you finally have a blog again! i'd to tell you something very-important. i'm just very glad you appeared in my life again. After going missing to-where-i dont know. but, i really am. and i love you a whole lot. (: And oh, its H-I-A-T-U-S not however-you-spell-it. Lol.

<3.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:06 PM

Monday, March 13, 2006

Sesuatu yang tak disangka
Seringkali mendatangi kita
Itukah suratan dalam kehidupan
Atau hanya satu kebetulan

Kita asyik membicarakan
Persoalan hidup dan pilihan
Sedang kejujuran semakin berkurang
Masih tiada bertemu jawapan

Walau kita dihadapkan
Dengan berbagai pilihan
Mengapa sering terjadi
Pilihan tak menepati

Hingga amat menakutkan
Menghadapi masa depan
Seolah telah terhapus
Sebuah kehidupan yang kudus

Pertemuan sekali ini
Bagi diriku amat bererti
Tetapi ku bimbang untuk menyatakan
Bimbangkan berulang kesilapan

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
12:04 AM

Sunday, March 12, 2006

You run down this tunnel. Hoping to find the light somewhere at the end of it. It's supposed to make it worth the while see. It's supposed to validate the reason why you do it in the first place.

Hopefully it does. Because I know this is the crux.

God give me strength to see this through.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
4:08 PM

There are many things that are IMPOSSIBLE- that's cos we were never meant to walk this long or short path of life by ourselves.

I live life with a simple creed: to make today count. Never go to bed angry, never go to bed without a clear conscience, never wake up and forget to thank God. Well, thing is, now sure how religious you are but I believe that the will of God will never send you where the grace of God cannot keep you.

So at the end of the day, what testament is your life?

i don't know yet.

I just live to make today count.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
12:13 AM

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Life can take your dreams and turn them upside down. Friends will talk about you when you're not around. Reality can really cut you down to size. People make you promises they'll never keep. Soon you'll know why people say talk is cheap. And life resembles on big compromise. Some where down the line you'll face the judgement day. When the angels look at you, what will you say? They've got a way of knowing who qualifies. Keep on shining, keep on smiling. Don't lose faith and don't lose heart. When you're crying, just keep trying to remind yourself. You're a shining star, Yes you are.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
2:10 PM

Indie-mand
Pulse; Awi Rafael from Rafe; Ronin & Pop Tart

16 Mar 06Nokia Music Station7.30pm - 2am

They're really in demand, and no wonder! Bursting with energy and raring to go are some of Singapore's very own indie-bands. With a lineup of Pulse, Awi Rafael from Rafe and Ronin, followed by a late after-hours party with indie-spinmeisters, Pop Tart, it's a formula to be INDIE-mand!

7.30 - 8.15pm Pulse
8.45 - 9.30pm Awi Rafael from Rafe
10 - 10.45pm Ronin
11.15 - 2am Pop Tart

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
12:14 PM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

This is extremely scary. I had a dream last saturday. I shall not say what it was about but MANY people whom i've asked has said that it is some sort of a premonition. Someone is going to die. It was last saturday but it came to my mind only today. I told Hanna, Nadiah, Shalu, Radhea and a few others about it during recess. And people came with a conclusion. Someone is going to die. It was a scary thought. Though images of Death or perharps the Graveyard is still fresh in my mind, following my uncle's death last last monday (20th Feb). That death too, i recieved some sort of a premonition. I randomly talked about him to Shalu during Silent Reading and the EXACT same time he passed away. 7.40am. I know, i checked my watch as i was talking as i was getting restless while reading. It was the exact same time reflected on the death certificate. There, i experienced my first death. First death of someone i love dearly, someone close to me's death and my very very first time crying in a graveyard. Sometimes i wish the first would be the last. But i know this is'nt possible. Especially not for death. Because afterall, Nothing in life is promised. Except death. And there i was, gazing at mr Wee in history, while my thoughts go running down and up a steep mountain. Could it be? i ask myself. Can it be true? Answer me, cause i need to know. I went home, still in gaze. My mum was'nt at home. Well, i know. She's gone out. And then while i was surfing forever nothings on the internet, shalu JUST told me.

Hanna's grandma has just passed away. MY, somebody please have a say. i'm sorry hanna. But i remember exactly what u said when i told u about my dream. you said you are afraid. I'm aafraid too. Very afraid.

<3lies.
On the lighter note,

My Favourite Girl, Miss Po. <3333.>

This is Mylo. He's got the most beautiful blue eyes i've ever seen.

And this is my very famous Mas. He's FAT. and i love him cus he's my FAT MAS.

Yes, the two MOST handsome boys in my life. Sweety&Golden. Yes, Sweety is a BOY ok.

Thats Grey and Sweety. Grey looks like he's a rugby player and fights with everyother cat except his best friend, Sweety.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
7:08 PM

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Random Post Deleted.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
8:31 PM

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Motivated by fun. Inviting and embrace life as a party which she's hosting. Loves playful interaction and can be extremely sociable and persuasive. She seeks instant gratification. Need to be adored and praised. Although carefree, she's are quite sensitive and highly alert to others motives to control her. Carry within her the gift of a good heart. Needs to look good socially, and friendships command a high priority in her life. Happy, highly verbal, easily bored, and crave adventure. Can never sit still for long. Choose friends who, like herself, refuse to allow lifes boring details stifle their curiosity. Embrace each day in the present tense. Charismatic, spontaneous, positive, and can be irresponsible, obnoxious, and forgetful. When you deal with a Nuratiqa, praise and adore her, take a positive, upbeat approach, and promote creative and fun activities for and with her.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
1:31 PM