Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Put down the magazine and get off the phone
Cuz theres a place I wanna show u and it wont take long
Take a ride
Take a ride
Its lookin like we're getting there
Over here, comin clear
Place that has no rhymes, or times, or crimes
Just good times
Just good times
Take me away
To a place where the good times good times roll
Don't let me stay
In a place where this hate can steal my soul
Got myself worked up over nothing today
All this trash in my head I gotta throw it away
Its alright
Its alright
This is it, I'm finally here
And all the blurry lines are clear
And everything that I cant see
Seems to make more sense to me
Why the hell cant I just let it go, let it go, yeah
Let the good times roll
Let the good times roll (take me away)
Let the good times roll (take me away)
Let the good times roll
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
8:48 PM
Happy Birthday, Mummy. (:My mum's cousin died yesterday. They share the same granfather but had different grandmummays. And its so sad cause she's only 28 this year. Hard life,she lead. Unexpected death,leaving two small children. Poor boys did not even know their father. She married their father when she was in her teens, NEVER knowing he was more into drugs than her. Five painful years and she finally let him go. Raising 2 boys was surely never easy for her. And then one day,she had a headache and just collapse. Ambulance came, took her away from her boys. Never did they know that moments before were her last moments with them. Hospital said she broke a blood vessel, up there in her brain. News cut deep like lighting, almost killing her father and relatives. They also mentioned something about never waking up ever again. Brain dead, the correct term. And then her whole system failed on her. Just in a moment. Can somebody please explain, please explain what exactly happened to her? Why did she have to go at that age and why such a painful death? Who's gonna explain everything to her boys? Whos gonna be there for them like how she was there? They are young children. So much younger than me and yet they already have to go through a painful stage in life. I dont know what i would do if anything harsh like that would happen to me. I would'nt know how to comtinue my life. But i believe they would. Please god, make them strong. This whole incident, it makes me appreciate what i have with me which won't be here forever. After all, nothing last forever. Its painful to see how a father loves his children so much, he would do just about anything for them. Its painful cause most of the time all their children care about is their own feelings. All they say is " no one understands me". But really, do they even bother trying to understand anyone else around? I can never seem to get over the lost of -. i love - so dearly. Only someone who loves a - as much as i do would feel it. But not just merely anyone. Thats why i don't cry my hearts out to everyone. And its weird how even the closest does not know. And i guess i have gotten oover - but i'll never stop loving -. i'm here, just like i said. Though its breaking every single rule i've ever made.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
6:00 PM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
this is a super random post. Don't have to read it if you dont want to.
In maths class, Friday. Zhirong, Mira and I were randomly talking while Mr Yong was randomly teaching. Zhirong started talking about his sisters.
Zhirong: My sister purposely got pregnant at 18 so my mummy let her marry her ah-beng bf.
Mira and me: HUH!? Damn smart lah she...
Zhirong: yeah lah...then she had a diploma in IT but now she work in a pharmacy. Stupid right...!?
Mira: stupid meh?
Me: LOL. Then her husband work as what?
Zhirong: LAWyer.
Mira & Me: LAWYER?????????????
Zhirong: (smiles) in a law firm..
Mira & me: ooh....
Me: Then as what? Paralegal?
Mira: IT man?
Zhirong: (gesturing a typing motion) CLERK!
Went to simpang with my mum aunt and uncle yesterday. They are the most-talk-crap people i've ever met. Lol. Most of the time i dont understand what they are talking about but i cant help laugh cause they laugh so bad. Lol. And then my aunt was like saying my mum already had her henna done on her fingers and she'll be getting married again the next day. which is today. and they planned where to put the pelamin and such - by the pnd at my grandmere's place! Crap lahh. And her match? Oh that poor old man whoose name i shall not mention cause its pretty scary,when i think about it. Lol. But yeah, its so funnay lah. And as usual, my uncle tries to break all the road rules in singapore. And most of the time, he does it on pure purpose and pleasure. Speeding when theres traffic light stops all the way. He's brilliant lah.
Radhia and me have a date today with that apek selling exam papers at Bedok. She cant help yanking on how hot the apek is. and...OK RADHIA I AM GOING TO BATH NOWWWWWWWWWWWWW. ( she really cant wait to spend some - time with the sexay apek. Ouch, i understand dhea. DID U SEE HIS BUTTT!!???) LOL. And oh our wedding tmr! :D.
much love.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
3:23 PM
Twenty Ways To Maintain A Healthy Level of Insanity 1. At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses on and point A Hair Dryer At Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down. 2. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice. 3. Every Time Someone Asks You To Do Something, Ask If They Want Fries with That. 4. Put Your Garbage Can On Your Desk And Label It "In". 5. Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks. Once Everyone Has Gotten Over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch To Espresso. 6. In The Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write "For Sexual Favors" 7. Finish all Your Sentences With "In Accordance With The Prophecy." 8. Don't use any punctuation 9. As Often As Possible, Skip Rather Than Walk. 11. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is "To Go." 12. Sing Along At The Opera. 13. Go To A Poetry Recital And Ask Why The Poems Don't Rhyme 14. Put Mosquito Netting Around Your Work Area And Play Tropical Sounds All Day. 17. When The Money Comes Out The ATM, Scream "I Won!, I Won!" 18. When Leaving The Zoo, Start Running Towards The Parking Lot, Yelling "Run For Your Lives, They're Loose!!" 19. Tell Your Children Over Dinner. "Due To The Economy, We Are Going To Have To Let One Of You Go." P/S: Please note that CENSORSHIP has been applied, thereby resulting in a loss of sequencing. haha And The Final Way To Keep A Healthy Level Of Insanity....... 20. Send This E-mail To Someone To Make Them Smile. It's Called Therapy.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
1:26 PM
it scares me to believe that you are the one.Well in case you failed to notice,In case you failed to see,This is my heart bleeding before you,This is me down on my knees, and...These foolish games are tearing me apart,And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.You're breaking my heart.You'd teach me of honest things,Things that were daring, things that were clean.Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean.I hid my soiled hands behind my back.Somewhere along the line, I must've gone Off track with you.Well, excuse me, guess I've mistaken you for somebody else,Somebody who gave a damn,Somebody more like myself.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
12:15 PM
There's a wedding going on the block opposite of mine. I wish I am the ONE gettting MARRIED!! =/
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
10:25 AM
Saturday, September 17, 2005
How I wish I could surrender my soul;Shed the clothes that become my skin;See the liar that burns within my needing.How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.How I wish I had screamed out loud,Instead I've found no meaning.I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;Hold memory close at hand,Help me understand the years.How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.How I wish I would save my soul.I'm so cold from fear.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:06 PM
Sunday, September 11, 2005
You put me on. I disappeared. And will be soon enough. Really fucked up with school and such. and starworkx. =/. hmm. School's on tmr. How fuckingly wonderful eh. Hatyai was a piece of heaven. Shopping is such a relief from hard work. Not like i've been working that hard lately. I wish i am though. Exams are damn fucking near. And i should constantly remind myself that it is important. i'm just so tired - with what, i dont know. I just want MUSIC. Music is life. Damnit.I feel like saying this: I dunno where its leading me this time. And i just don't know why. ergh. Enough said. Gigs update: I'm in need for music. Ronin's album launch yesterday at Rouge club. I have not even gotten the album. =/. Sure will, real soon. - i hope. Awi rafael band still on every fridae at Timbre's. Yet to check that out. Singapore Metal Fest 2005's on the 1st of oct. err eh, metal? haha. SEARCH Live In Singapore! on the 1st of oct too. haha. Samir's going for this one. =/. i MISS bhumiband! arrrgh. RAFE! dead,dead,dead. mwah.much love love love and music made in singapore,esme-relda.Lead singer of that band.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
4:22 PM
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
4:00 PM
