SAVE ME; someone's bound to hear my cries.

Monday, January 30, 2006

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
7:49 PM

My father arrived yesterday for CNY. He's out to visit my uncle at the hospital. My mum's out with my aunt, shoppping i suppose. My parents are leavin for KL tmr evening and i hate it. I don't like to be left alone. And worst still, living with at my gram's place. That clearly means i wont be able to return late after Rock For Good. How fucking annoying. My mum promised to pay for the tickets but thats only a fucking 10 bugs. (But Levan's getting me in so i probarly wont have to pay for the tickets!!) Although thats not fair to the rest. But i dont care. i'm 10 dolllars richer babeh. Which is not much. But thats not the point. She should be paying for the Oasis gig ticks for me. LOL. Oh, come on. i WANT to GO.

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So I have decided on a Bass. But i'm afraid i'll get too obsessed with it. Since i need to study really bad. But i can't wait after O`s. For whatever reasons. Hurhur. Khai said he would accompany me to SweeLee to get it but the thing is, im so unsure of it. I mean, the way he said it, that was fucking attractive. (YEAH!) But i dont want to you know, get too obssesed. Cause i'm very prone to getting obsessed to someone or something. "But u have to study u know.." Oh, Yeh. But anyway. LALALA. Haha. I've got a new dinosaur! :PP
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Noel. Part of the Greatest Rock&Roll Band of the 90`s. (After GreenDay and U2, of course.)

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Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,

And think of you

Caught up in circles confusion

Is nothing new

Flashback - warm nights -

Almost left behind

Suitcases of memories,Time after Time

Sometimes you picture me -

I'm walking too far ahead

You're calling to me, I can't hear

What you've said -

Then you say - go slow -

I fall behind -

The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look - and you will find me

Time after time

If you fall I will catch you - I'll be waiting

Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has

Turned to gray

Watching through windows - you're wondering

If I'm OK

Secrets stolen from deep inside

The drum beats out of time -

If you're lost you can look - and you will find me

Time after time

If you fall I will catch you - I'll be waiting

Time after time

You said go slow -

I fall behind

The second hand unwinds -

Love.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
2:48 PM

Sunday, January 29, 2006

People change. I'm glad i did.

Seeing you it kills me know. But no, i wont turn back time.

And when we meet. Of which we did. What that was there, was still there.

I've let it pass and held my tougue. And you've think that i've moved on.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
6:08 PM

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

(it's ridiculous)
It's been month
sAnd for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:13 PM

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

I wish today's Friday. So i can sleep like a pig till tomorrow. I need motivation. I can't go on like this. Can someone force me to study? After all, Malay O`level's in 17 weeks! My mum's really good at it but she's never home lately. As much as i want all this to be over real soon, i'm not doing anything about it. School ends at 4 tmr. and they'll be 4 HOURS of ms Teo. World, bless me. As if not bad enuff, i'm sitting right in front.

i love egg tarts and maths. i love to laugh and i love to love. i love animals and i love you. i love coke but it makes me sick. i love falling ill, i hate recovering. i love attention and i hate detention. i hate history but i love the teacher. i'm addicted to the online world and sleeping makes me high. i don't drink and drive. my hair's not straight but i'm i am. I love music and i love writing. i want to be a rockstar and not a doctor. i hate you and your fans who claim to be your friends. i hate sausages and i love literature. i'm sometimes retarded and i love to crap. i love myself. i abhor you and everything about you. i love my name and my family. i love my cats and i miss my dotty much. i love the tv and radio. i need to be constantly entertained. i sometimes talk to myself to get over the loneliness. i'm of mixed blood. i'm very much afraid of cockroaches. i love kelly clarkson. i love the local music scene. i sometimes suffer from permanent pms. sometimes i cry, sometimes i laugh. i hate nothing and i dont like many things. i love what u hate and i hate what u love. i hate what u did. i dont have regrets that last for more thn 8 days. i wish i'm 99.9% perfect. i want a song with my name on it. i want to sing all night. i want to be a pr manager. i want to be a lwayer. i love the number 8. i want to make lots of money and own a media company. i want EVERYONE to read this.

Lol. More coming your way!!! Bye for now. :P.
i hate YOU. Can?

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
8:16 PM

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

I HAPPEN HATE THOSE PEOPLE WHO HAPPEN TO KNOW A GUY (personally) WHO HAPPEN TO BE AN ANUGERAH FINALIST!!

YOU DONT HAVE TO SHOW OFF AT FRIENDSTER RIGHTT?????
They think funny is it?

I HATE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!
AND YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!
And that stupid NADYA song.
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

AKU GERAM.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
7:41 PM

You know how some people are crazy over a (few) paticular guy (s) who happens to be a Anugerah finalist? Why are they so star struck over this people who happen to be Anugerah finalists? I mean, remember when it was Singapore Idol fever? You see girls SCREAMING Taufik's name. Not because they want him to know them as a fan. But rather, more of a "girlfriend material". What the fuck? Of course you tend to like a particular someone when its theres a competition. But seriously, even if that person smiles at you, tell you to come again, replies your messages or sign on your bra, do u seriously think he's in love with you? When you scream his name for the EVERY visit u give him, just like all the others does, you think he notice you? Of course he doesnt. i mean, unless the spot was shining right on him, you might have seen you but seeing a thousand other girls, can he spot u? Does he remembers you? OF COURSE NOT. He had a life before Anugerah or Idol you know.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
7:07 PM

Saturday, January 14, 2006

First of all, a big big SORRY for not updating. I've been very busy with school and what nots. Anyway, I am updating with a purpose. I need to let my thoughts on these issues be known.

First and foremost, to all my friends who smoke, please quit. Or at least, cut down on smoking. Why? I visited my uncle at Tan Tock Seng Hospital the other day. He's very sick. I shall not say here what he is suffering from, but I assure you, its bad. My other uncle has instructed not to let him know of his illness, out of pity. Listening to the many conversations going around me at the hospital, I realised that smoking was the cause. The things that the doctors found in him will bring anyone to his or her knees. Ask me personally if you want to know more. I can't bring myself to talk about him online. It's...nevermind. Just, try to cut down on smoking.

I can't seem to stop wondering, at his position right now, at this very moment, is he still thinking of smoking? I mean, he has been smoking for more than 40 years. Yes, he started when he was about 14. And at this very moment, he just cant let go of it. Cigarrete has taken control over him. And sadly, he still yearns for it. Cigarrete has very much shorten his life. And i cant believe he still smoked in the toilet. In that conditioned, he still DARED to smoke. Are'nt he aware of what smoking has done to him? Or atleast to everyone around him. Doesnt he realise the pain we feel? To think that he does deserve the illness, it sucks. Doctors says he has just 3 months left. And i dunno what i can do anymore.

Sometimes I wonder why people have problems, or simply said, what goes on in their minds at all. Everyday all I see is people, friends, families, doing stuff that I see as totally worthless, and not doing stuff that could actually bring themselves somewhere. I see teenagers in the coolest outfits, expensive mp3 players, just trying to look cool, when all the cool they get is through the lack of cloth on their body (even that cost alot of money!). With them doing all that is supposed to bring happiness, what's with all the dismay?

Simply put it, people are thinking rationally lesser nowadays. Emotions come first. Consequences later. What the hell. Sometimes it pisses me off seeing people getting manipulated by others and not doing anything about it. They take it all in, saying that is their fate. Come on! You have your own mind, your own life! You call that silence 'love'? I call that 'stupid'.

Stay a little while and hear me say.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
6:12 PM

Friday, January 13, 2006

Shout outs

Feeza: I'm all that you've got? haaha. aww, how sweet. Please know that sometimes i guess you're the only one i have left. We've made it thru 4 years and we've never fight seh. haha. i love u la. so much please. and our 4 months is in 2 days time! Haha. love. I SO love you TOOO.
Nadiah: Omg you miss the khairil shits? hahaha. i'm so dumb! haha. Ok, more khairil shits coming your way. And i definately like you YELLOW dinosaur better. Its sounds the best la. :P
Zaz: No problem la. haha. Eh, i didnt copy your number. Sorry la i'll ask feeza for it ok. Thanks for the listening ear. Love.
Yana: Which "he" is khairil? haha. Cant be. i dont use "he" on khairil. Everyone knows i love him. Haha. Eh, i cant believe you didnt approach me at simei. WTFh la. haha.
Pepper: Hey YOU!!! Tsk, i miss u so much la. Whatever happened to you? i dont see u online either. And, i changed my number! haha. See u at the RGS gig ok. (:. much <3.

somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
9:22 PM