Monday, June 18, 2007
My head hurts so fuckingly bad and I can't fall asleep. My eyes are swollen from all the thinking. Thinking too much is a difficult habit to break. It has just grown into me. And its scary cuz these negative thoughts would eventually come through. I think there was wayyyyy too much contradiction and irony going on yesterday cuz suddenly, I remembered this moment:"Is the way it's really going down? Is this how we say goodbye? Shoulda known better when you came around That you were gonna make me cry Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around Cause I know that you're living a lie"But all I did was to look you in the eye. Oh you were so right, I am living a lie. And should I mention -here I am, staying up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring. Oh, fuck off already.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
3:49 AM
