Monday, June 18, 2007
Its so fucking scary how I can tell something bad's going to happen to me. Especially when I'm always so right. Its like I feel fucked up even before it happens. but why oh why do I feel worst when it does really happens. Like theres no fucking sense in that. I think I've endured this pain for tooo long. There's no sense in holding on to the hope cuz its so fucking obvious. She's just so much better in everyway. I'm not complaining, I know everyone's got their own gifts and such. I suppose she's got everything. But this is the final straw. I can't possibly be in love given the fuckin short period of time, so fuck that. but god, how I tried not to notice, just to avoid tears from flowing. and oh such irony, how you asked me whats wrong. how do you understand? oh how I try to avoid your eyes. don't get me wrong, I don't want you. But you proved just how much more superior she is. and that, was painful. I guess I'll have to get away from this place all together. I need to go.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
2:05 AM
