Monday, April 30, 2007
its crazy is'nt it,
how the boy you never want just steal your heart. Don't let me be the last to know//
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
3:03 PM
Saturday, April 28, 2007
I don't understand why and how sometimes we know that he's not being true, we know that he's got a million other girls and we're just at the corner of his mind, we know he's just a plain simple jerk and we know he's just not that into us and YET we are always there for him, we accept their apologies way to readily knowing they'll hurt us again. Its sad, is'nt it.Personally, I know at least 5 of my girlfriends who just cannot help but give in to their boyfriends. They apologise when its not even their fault. They apologise cuz they got angry over something their boyfriend had said/done. Why should we be sorry for all of their mistakes? And at the end of the day its always a girl's fault. You know i used to be an optimist. I used to believe in the power of love but right now, i really don't know. I see how things start sweetly and then I see how it end brutally. It ALL ends the same, you know. Everything really does end the same. And nothing last forever. Why the fuck should i even bother starting anything? Why should i bother commiting myself in anything? It would all be just a waste of time.But then again, i think i maybe wrong.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
10:31 PM
Friday, April 27, 2007
ENGINEERING MATHS IS (:
You know how they say that if you say you suck at something, you really would suck at it. like not believing in yourself affects you. Yeah, thats exactly why i'm trying to convince myself that engineering maths and engineering units and dimension are actually FUN.
Okay AS movie night now. Tata.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
6:58 PM
Friday, April 20, 2007
So i KNOW i have not been updating for pretty long time now. not like it matters anyway. but i've been on to something lately that has been getting me all tired and sleepy. SCHOOL!!! I'm back to sch after what seems to be like 2854757038 months of nothing. okay, not exactly nothing. i was a working class citizen then! now i'm finally back as a student. YEAHOO! And where else is school, if not for the place to be, TP! ((: I'm in Chem Engine (DAUNTLESS!!) and boy do i love it there. There's probably only 10 girls for this yr's intake! thats like 10 girls in all of 6 classes. HOW MF COOL IS THAT? i like!! ((: AND so DAUNTLESS WON THE BEST COURSE IN AS SCHOOL! I'm forever blowing bubbles!Pretty bubbles in the air..They fly so high, nearly reach the sky..Then, like my dreams they fade and die.Fortune's always hidingI've looked everywhere.I'm forever blowing bubbles,pretty bubbles in the air!DAUNTLESS! DAUNTLESS!!!!!!I LOVE TP'S SCHOOL OF APPLIEDSCIENCE ChE!MORE UPDATES ON THE MF TIRING AND SLEEEPPYYYY ORIENTATION ONCE I GET PICTURES FROM WHOEVER!!
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:53 PM
Friday, April 13, 2007
Why, hello.
I hurt myself today, to see if i still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing thats real. What have i become?
Why do i always get away from happiness? Why do i do this to myself? Why did i walk away from someone who was staring into my eyes? Why, do i like to be sad? How did i stop myself from feeling?
To my questions, i need an answer.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
10:32 PM
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
10:44 PM
From the moment that we met I knew that we would connect. Your eyes had told me that somehow we shared a history. Feeling fearless, I took a chance. Couldn't let the moment pass. I felt that fate had played a hand and had brought you here to me.
But happiness can be short-lived. And pain can bring you to your knees.Now that it's all said and done, i can't believe you were the one, to build me up and tear me down. Like an old abandoned house. What you said when you left, just left me cold and out of breath. I fell too far, was in way too deep. Guess I let you get the best of me.And when you slammed the front door shut, a lot of others opened up. So did my eyes -so i could see, that you never were the best for me.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
9:25 AM
Monday, April 02, 2007
I missed ccsg's staff party yesterday. ): I was too tired when Syaf called and fell asleep right after that. So how sad. I saw the photos posted on Mich's LJ and it was so... happy. I miss being happy. I really do. And i'm so going to miss everyone single one of them when i leave that place. Not like its going to be anytime soon, anyway. Speaking of ccsg, i'm doing opening tomorrow. Oh, such sore. i hate you. but what more can i possibly do? how do you stop two person falling for each other? and so i read the blogs and read the faces and read the expressions and i wonder. should i laugh or should i cry? am i meant to living in lies?
You said you're leaving for good, i wished you well. and someday you will understand, how you killed me inside.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
8:22 AM
