Monday, January 29, 2007
I've been thinking alot lately, about this, that and what. I'm only turning seventeen this year and boy, do I feel older in so many ways. I would'nt say I've experienced too much in life cuz there's so much more, I'm sure. But sometimes, I feel so tired and confused. Its like suddenly the path's not straight anymore. And most of the time, I really cannot seem to understand why. If there's any word best to describe my situation, it would be lost. I really don't know what I'm feeling, why and what I'm going to do next. Often I'm surrounded by friends, family and colleagues. Sometimes I feel so alone even around them. Sometimes I feel I should be alone but I can't just leave. There's this fine line between the urge of wanting to let my contipated thoughts and feelings out and not wanting to be so naive till someone decides to stab me in the back -again. Often I'm overwhelmed by the latter. Sometimes I think I'm being way too paranoid. I try my best to let someone in but my trust for him/her is often restricted in a certain way or another. Why? Tell me now cuz I need to know. Because now, when I really need someone to listen, I feel alone. Sure, I know a friend or two who might be reading it and find this a rudicule cuz I they think I tell them alot of things. But the truth remains. Somethings a girl just keep inside. And then it goes back to the moment a friend gave me a purple ribbon. It was not an orginal, but it meant alot to me cuz I felt her sincerity. You give that purple ribbon to someone who truly makes a difference in your life. The ribbon says, "Who You Are Makes A Difference". This ribbon has saved many lifes and relationships. I was once told of the story of the purple ribbon, but I guess I'll save it for maybe next time. So you see, I'm still in search of that someone who can read my heart inside out. It's not too much from someone, really. I just want to meet that person who truly deserves a purple ribbon. Tell me if you're the one? (:Seriously, the whole reason why I even had this blog (and STILL do) is because I'm often lonely. And bored. And sleepy.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
11:54 PM
