I guess, (guess only eh!!) its true when they say that Life is a series of ups and downs. And i think (think only eh!!) that though we should think and learn from the downs, we should not entirely forget the ups. (: I don't know how i got the strength to say that cuz if i'm experiencing this at any other point of my life, this blog would be all toooo emo for you people to even read. But I'm close to my sixteen birthday so i think i can change this life. i can make myself happy and yet be close to God. (:
One of my oldest uncle is currently battling for his life at the Intensive Care Unit at NUH. He's my father's brother, but they have a different mother. I have to say i was never close to his family. They live all the way acrossss the island, at woodlands. I remember going to their house when i was younger, and even a few years back, for Hari Raya. But i really don't remember my cousins which is oh so sad. They're way older then me and my uncle's oldest grandson (= to my nephew) is twenty. Yeah, even he's older then me. (And he's oh so hot!) haha. And the other nephews of mine are also mostly boys, so imagine how i go gaga when i see them. Not because they're hot or what la dei! Its cus i love baby boys, you know!? heh. Well yeah, imagine how much older my cousins are. But they're all so lovely (even their husbands and wifes!) and i love them so much, i really really really do though we don't meet too often and all. Most of the time i wish we're closer but wth. ): I was glad when my mum say that we shall invite all of them for a holiday in KL when our house is ready. You know, i really can't wait. heh. (:Seeing my uncle in such a state is way too depressing and i shall not elaborate on it. And I was way amazed by how strong my cousins were. Let's just say it was toooo depressing i could not stop crying even after i reach home. ): I cried on the phone when Mira called me. I'm sorry i couldnt say much, you. But you made me feel better somehow!!! (: And well, i was not exactly crying when i was talking to An. I mean, hello!!! Miss ego here. lol. We were talking about death and all. (i was secretly crying la!) cuz i think i said something tooooooo scary. which i shall not mention it here. heh! But anyway it was funneh when i was TRYING to talk and cry at the same time. haha. An was like "Are you crying?" and i went "uh? no la! *sniff sniff*". lol. He started laughing like an ass and well, i couldnt help it so i started laughing. Bleh you la!! And Thanks to all those who smsed me and told me to be strong. (: I love you ALL la! So you see, I may be hit by a sad situation. But I've got soo many great friends there for me. (: Hence, my life is not sooo bad after all. Thanks to people like Mira, Soyah, An, Pepper and everyone else who made me realise that i cannot do anything about death. The most i can do is pray to God. (:
Love.
