Tuesday, October 24, 2006
This yeaar's hari raya is completely different from every other year. And why, its all because of the relatives i've lost within this few months. Funny how i use to have absolutely no sense of mortality, how i use to tell people that i have never experienced death of anyone i love. Funny how it all has changed, and how i am now forced to face it.They say death is natural, everyone young or old will experience death. May it be death of a neighbour, an old friend, uncle/auntie and oh, of your own parents. There's even a malay saying, "Setiap yang bernyawa itu pasti akan mati". But god why, i don't think i have come to accept it fully. In fact i don't think i ever will.If someone only 16 years of age, having experienced so little in life, and having spend such little time compared to others with the buried,feel so much pain and is overwhelmed with poignancy, what about the closer family members? Imagine the pain hurt anguish sorrow despair bleakness melancholia and what nots i felt when i saw my grandaunt crying, when i saw my aunties and mummy crying. Imagine how she feels, losing both her husband and daughter at almost the same time?What is happening to this world? ):
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
9:05 PM
