Friday, September 08, 2006
Looking back, I'm full of regrets. I told my friends that you were the best. And as i stand, just watching the rain. I pray that you would open your eyes and be here once again. But i know, i know things always have to change.
I will never, smile because i saw you smiling at me. I will never, laugh because we shared an inside joke. I will never, cry because you said it was for me. I will never, scream because you said there's a cockroach below the table. I will never. I will never ever again.
Someone once told me that I'm living in denial. I told her I'm not and that I know what i'm doing. I said I know what I'm waiting and searching for. She told me that I'm lying to myself. I told her I'm not. Perharps I was right. Perharps at that point of time I was blinded. But now, looking back, I guess she's right. I really don't know why I'm waiting and what I'm waiting for. What exactly do I see? You, of course.
So suave and sexy. Doing all that thing you do. And all the other things that you do, too. You practically steal my thoughts. and my time. (heh.) I was amazed by every little thing that you do. You're amazing, you know? But above all that, you kept playing games with my heart. Why, I wonder.
The hardest part of holding on is letting go.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
6:02 PM
