Saturday, January 14, 2006
First of all, a big big SORRY for not updating. I've been very busy with school and what nots. Anyway, I am updating with a purpose. I need to let my thoughts on these issues be known. First and foremost, to all my friends who smoke, please quit. Or at least, cut down on smoking. Why? I visited my uncle at Tan Tock Seng Hospital the other day. He's very sick. I shall not say here what he is suffering from, but I assure you, its bad. My other uncle has instructed not to let him know of his illness, out of pity. Listening to the many conversations going around me at the hospital, I realised that smoking was the cause. The things that the doctors found in him will bring anyone to his or her knees. Ask me personally if you want to know more. I can't bring myself to talk about him online. It's...nevermind. Just, try to cut down on smoking. I can't seem to stop wondering, at his position right now, at this very moment, is he still thinking of smoking? I mean, he has been smoking for more than 40 years. Yes, he started when he was about 14. And at this very moment, he just cant let go of it. Cigarrete has taken control over him. And sadly, he still yearns for it. Cigarrete has very much shorten his life. And i cant believe he still smoked in the toilet. In that conditioned, he still DARED to smoke. Are'nt he aware of what smoking has done to him? Or atleast to everyone around him. Doesnt he realise the pain we feel? To think that he does deserve the illness, it sucks. Doctors says he has just 3 months left. And i dunno what i can do anymore.Sometimes I wonder why people have problems, or simply said, what goes on in their minds at all. Everyday all I see is people, friends, families, doing stuff that I see as totally worthless, and not doing stuff that could actually bring themselves somewhere. I see teenagers in the coolest outfits, expensive mp3 players, just trying to look cool, when all the cool they get is through the lack of cloth on their body (even that cost alot of money!). With them doing all that is supposed to bring happiness, what's with all the dismay? Simply put it, people are thinking rationally lesser nowadays. Emotions come first. Consequences later. What the hell. Sometimes it pisses me off seeing people getting manipulated by others and not doing anything about it. They take it all in, saying that is their fate. Come on! You have your own mind, your own life! You call that silence 'love'? I call that 'stupid'. Stay a little while and hear me say.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
6:12 PM
