Saturday, December 24, 2005
I'm fucking excited. HE gave me his msn. HAHA. its not my fault if i fall in love. after all, i'm already obsessed. Lol. ok back to what i wanted to blog about...We NEVER did asked you to change. I think its clear we dont even care.
I've realised that friends do come and go. some stay and others leave. the ones that stay may not necessarily be your best or even the closest. the ones that go may be your best. I have also witnessed for myself how promises are broken and how some people just take you in for who you are. I was never cursed in the past. But i'm very sure i've got blessings for now. Cause the ones who are actually here for me now are the ones who have always accepted things. They may not have been there for me then but they are here for me now, when i need them the most. They dont try to hide the truth to keep themself safe when there's a quarrel or fight. they are truthful and only want the best for everyone. i shall not bother about the past cus well, its not here anymore. i love my present and thats all i'm wishing for. They may not know things of the past but they are surely in my future. and the feeling that i feel now that i'm sure i've got them, its unexplainable. i'm elated for having such wonderful friends. And theres nothing much more i would ask for, except for the togetherness between us.
I know that friendship does'nt last. But i've been thinking, why dont we make it last? We shall forget those in the past and start anew. no melanholy mood.
Nadiah, we met way in Sec 1 and i've never regreted it since. Sure, there are moments where i cant stand your screams but i guess i annoy you the same. I'll always remember u for bringing the noise everywhere we go and things just ain't the same without you. i remember the sec 1 days where we use to exchange letters. and the sec 2 days where i was mostly away. and this sec 3 year where we definately bonded a lot better. though we've never been that close, you're definately one of the best and still is. you make me smile and i love you for everything. i'm definately looking forward for more times with you. cause you're my YELLOW DINOSAUR!! haha. love.
Atiqa, we met way in sec 1 too. but things were different then. haha. i remember a girl in malay class who had the same name as me. and same pencil box. hurhur. i was initially not very pleased with u. haha. wtf. ok no. i cant exactly remember how we got close and stuffings. but we became sisters. and that was in sec one seh. so many things happen in sec 1. haha. ok so again, i was away in sec 2. and its something i might never forgive myself for. i'm still so sorry for the bad year. but things got way better towards the end. and oh, i remember even when i wasnt close to you, we used to exchange letters. and you actually were tryin to help me go thru a phase in life. and i guess i might have never gone thru it if not for u. you were one of my pillars of strength. and love.
So there you go. Of course theres my Feeza but she wont read it here. haha. so its okay. she knows how much i love her too much. haha. and all the friends i've made this year. you guys are wonderfully great. thanks for the ultimate laughters! haha. and bitching. and hallucinating. hurhur.just love.
<3,
esmerelda is in <3.constantly.
Moments spend with you are the moments i treasure.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
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