Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Seriously didnt want to wake up for school in the morning but i didnt have a good reason. So i had to go to that misery place. It was pretty shitty in the morning in maths class. Mr malek started shouting and all about our results. He was all lecturing and yeh. But i guess whatever he said was true. But still...it pisses me offf laa when teachers starts to shout for no apparent reason. And now Jeevas sitting another sit back me. But actually it doesnt matter. cus we still crapped. Haha. eh that smart boy actually took pink form and got it approved only because he didnt do his mother tongue homework. Smart arse i should say. I mean thats how our class get away with not doing homework. Take pink form and leave school. Just yesterday 4 of us took it at the same time. And the teachers actually believed they were sick. Haha.I love literature MORE now. hah. We're doing a book on a play and its really into drama. We're leaarning about stages and plays and dramas... I LIKE! hahh. We will even have to act the whole thing out some day. i Love it lah. And being a set designer is damn cool job. i like! hah. But its like so the visual art. ERGH. i dont like. hhah. yeh.And i was damn rebellious in English today. i cant believe the teacher cancelled everything i write which was pretty long and wrote her crap which is just 2 sentences. i mean, ITS MY ESSAY RIGHT? bitch sial. i got pissed. i mean if shes gonna cancel everything and write her shit which was SERIOUSLY stupid, then why ask me to do? She's a Nolifer i swear. Oh,Tyron was in our class all the way during english and she doesnt even notice him. ahaha. And then history class was as usual rubbish. never hear a thing. Feeza and me ate HELLO PANDA! I had a craving for it. haha. yehh. Then it was recess. which was ok. I cant possibly complain about recess right?? haha. CME was FUN. mice and me just kept crapping and laughing like nolifers. hah. We laugh at every rubbish thing la. And we were suppose to make a list on What Girls Want. haha. and we both wrote CRAPP. hah. i shall not mention what we wrote though. HAHA. yehh. and then had mother tongue which we did not do anything. hah. miss rubiah even let us out early. Yepps. Boy,You're gonna hate me when I tell you everything. You're gonna question whether you really know me at all. You will revisit every smile, and where it fit into the day. I know this is how it will play. And I try to think of all the things. That I could do to let you know that I love you. Even so I was not looking to do you wrong. Was not looking for a change of scenery. Don't remember where, or when, or how I did. But I'm hoping that you'll forgive me. Do you remember how we used to run in the rain? Wishing it will wash away our pain? I try so very hard. And I cry so very much. For I love you like you'll never let yourself feel again. I love you like a brother and a friend. I love you with my whole heart until it bends. I love you like a lover until the very end. But I'll always think of all the things you did to let me know that you love me. But you're leaving.I don't even know why i bother write all that down. Not that it matters anymore anyway. I know. Just don't remind me. Please pretend i don't know a thing. Cause it wont hurt much that way.Much Love Boy, Much Painesme-reLda ((:
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
6:11 PM
