my life is as good as screwed.it really should'nt be but im so the depressed.haha.i really shouldnt be.i use to be an optimist.but lately..its just hard.i never let anything bad let me down but now..i cant help but feel sad over everything that have happened.and im afraid something similliar might happen.but i feel like its something i have no control over,i feel so useless.really.like there's nothig left in the world for me.im in a state of confusion pain and trauma.i have so many memories with so many people.mostly good.and for the bad ones,i actually could understood why it happened,but now...i've been running away from my problems.i just can never understand why im sucha a loser.
i want to run away from everything and everyone.no one will ever understand.and i dun expect anyone to ever do. i guess im meant to live in sorrows,pain and tears.
