Monday, January 03, 2005
ok so todays suppose to be fun but it sucked in every way.
school was killing me.
first thing in the morning mrs woo caught me for my hair.
wat crap man that old shit.
she spoiled my day that dog.
and then class was fucking boring.
302 sux i swear.
ms teo is ok.
but my classmates..
suck.
english was ok.
but the teacher is jus liike me,talk lotsa crap.
heh tats ok.
and then recess.
i feel so lame.
like there's no one to talk to.
only me and shalu.
wasnt even in the mood for some maggot with cheese time.
and f&n suck to the core.
had to sit with fana and feeza.
i felt arkward.
like i dun feel belong to them anymore.
neither do i feel belonged to the shalu atiqa farhan dhea alif gang.
and then i was walking home and i met him.
i mean why god,out of all the days why meet him today??
looking in his eyes,i still feel it.
i still believe in his stupid butterfly with sugar lies.
and went home.
thinked about life.
i started crying.
why oh god,why am i not over him?
what did i do,mistake so great,that cause me to jus cant get over him?
ooh,wait,i noe,i trusted and loved him too much.
thats' why.
rezza,if onlay you can see,how much pain you're causing.
it makes me wanna rot and die.
god please,it hurts.
[esmerelda of sorrows]
haunted by the past.
sorrows from yesterdays.
pain to much to bear.
no love can ever change;
the dreadful feeling in me.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
5:44 PM
