Monday, December 06, 2004
i wish i could run away sometimes from everything and everyone.or that i couldnt feel anything that has to do with emotions.there's only one emotion i want to understand and feel, happiness.hurt, sadness, pain, confuseness can just fuck off.
but thats never gonna be possible.cause the world is cruel.so screw me for being human.humans are probably the hardest Things anyone could ever be.cause we feel too much,we judge too much,we assume too much,and we hurt too much.
for once, i wish there was some medicine that you could take and be all,ANTI-SADNESS for the rest of your life.but then that wouldnt be good either,you'll never be sad and you'll never understand how its like to be sad at people dying or stuff like that.people would call you weak cause you won't know how to control your emotions.i thought i could.until now.
i wish i could just put you out of my mind.why's it so fucking hard?i thought it would be relatively easy.but it isnt.
so screw emotions.and screw me for being so..fucking stupid.
i hate this.
i hate me now.
my heart is yours to fill or burst,to break or bury,or wear as jewellry,whichever you fucking prefer .
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
7:28 PM
