Friday, December 31, 2004
.song]-[spin-dimana janjimu yang dulu .
We are very blessed here in Singapore...blessed that our little island was spared from the tsunamis. Let's take a moment to remember the thousands of lives (more than 123,000 at the last count) lost all over the region, the millions of dollars of damage and the millions all over asia who are now homeless and without their loved ones....can you imagone that happening to you? i think the world's goin to end soon.and im still not devoted to god.im trying..
ok shussh.i actually repaired the fucking cpu myself.k la not repaired.the thng is nothing happened to it.i jus had to put some wire here and there and vaa laa its done.haha.k u pple dunno wat happpen. welll i dropped the cpu off the table.um yeh i did.haha.siallah nabil wasnt mad at me but i jus started crying.ahah.and locked myself in my room.siao i swear.hahax.and he asked me to go out but i cant.i was..crying too much until farhan,my cousin who return to singapore with me from is winter break in america,came and asked me to get out of the room cus he need to give me burfdae prezzie but i couldnt cus tears wont stop.and he left for malaysia without goodbye and i'll never see him until..wat? next july? gosh.all because of fuckin pms.whaha.well..yeh.
so tonight's alreadi 2005.right?um yeh.i will miss 2004 like hell siaal.i mean.a lot of things happened.yeh almost killed me but watever.those are like the best things.THE BESTTTTTTT~~~~~!!!!! gossh.i miss him*.i miss them.i miss the outings,late at night.i miss the tears.the laughter.the times when we were all friends and lovers.the times where we were carefree.now wat happened to those timess?how did it all ended so soon?i jus wish i can live this yr agen.and make the wrong things right.but i guess i wont be able to do it.i do not regret cus without all that,i wont be here today.but sometimes i still grief.i mean,we are all not friends anymore.pple doing their own things with a smaller grp of friends.its difference.but no i dun wish to be friends with everyone agen.people who make me learn that u cannot even trust ur best friends.now how insecure is tat.im glad their not my bestfriends.never were.she just pretended.so she can have him.fuck off la she hurt me like hell and in the end she didnt even get him.crap siall.
talked to shalu yesterdaa nite agen.haa.like until 3 i think.we talked and talked about 2004.haa.about the friends we thought we had who ended up hurting us.i love shalu la.she understands me like no other crap.and we can take each other's crap when everyone else tries to shut us up.she and me 's so maggot with cheese.aaha.anyway shalu and me have been close since we were in sec 1 la k we share our secrets since then so i dun wanna hear crap like next yr sure i and shalu close and blah2.. jus becus we are in the same class.we are alreadi close la k.and i miss her.and yaya.and dhea.and farhan and atiqa and him.hhaha.crap.k screw the him part.i miss my friends!!!!!!hahas.all of us carrying a pink and black bag combination on the 3rd.haha.cool shit.that's what's friends are for.
its only 1:36pm and im awake siall.i mean i slept at like 3 plus yesterdae.and i woke up at like 1 jus now.early siaah.ahahs.pig siaah.ahaha.mummy's out.nabil's coming home soon.its raining!!!!!!!!!!!! and they are not showin the nation's countdown!!!!!!so iguess tonight must go out ah.hah..crap.i feel like going shopping.haha.oh god father's coming home todayy.weeee!!!miss him!uahuha.
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
1:55 PM
