Tuesday, November 02, 2004
All my life I've been sorry for something
Something gets me nothing and nothings such a waste
All this time I've been sayin I'm sorry
But why should I be sorry for all of your mistakes
hahas...its 3:40,mummy waking up at 4..oh wait a min! i did not set her alarm! aiiights will jus wake her up at 4 laa..hahas..yep,still using the computerr while everyone else thinks im asleep..samir's not asleep i think..but well,maybe he is..he has got a big test tmrr..so bored to be online at this hour.but then agen its good laa..very peaceful..dun need to block any body to get some peace..hahas..not that i always do laa..well,i was looking through jean yip's website and then i saw this link on student and i thought it had the profiles of all the students cus u noe the guy who did my hair was a student. but paiseh me.it was like some weird thing about how to be a student in jean yip academyy..lame siaah..hahas..i guess im not overr the well,crush-inest i have on him and on christopher lee...hahah..me dun want to get over christopher lee can? hahahx..my photobucket is like there is AN album jus for pictures of him.Crush,i tell u..
Rezza.believe it or not,i am NOT over him.kaes wait a min i CANNOT get over him. i tried and i tried but its like the memories and his words,i just cannot forget.why?i dunno.it has been like 10 months since we met but hey,i remember the exact date and time and venue and jus how we met.i guess it was all an illusion but hey,who cares.maybe we were just suppose to meet to well......be friends? but i still hate the dark memories of us.painful,i tell u.but what is there that i can do ryte?he's just a picture i see in my mind.a voice i hear in my mind.he is someone great but somehow i did not cherish him.i loved him but people around who noe both of us well say i dun love him.what can i do ryte? he believed them more than he believed my love.and in the end i was blamed.when all the things he did was left unspoken.i wish i can whack those people who told lies to not let us be together.i noe exactly who those people are and it hurts cus they are my friendss.if they had feelings for him too,should'nt they have let him live a happy life?but well i guess he is happy,not knowing the truth. the truth hurts me alot but theres nothing i can do.sometimes the person u trust betray u like no other.sometimes the person u call friend hates u but wont show it.all the sin was done by someone else but rezza saw me as the sinner.what can i do? when he say i love you,i asked him if he meant it. he said he did.what is love to him? card game? monopoly?
leaving for kl tmr night.so wont be blogging until maybe next monday.the 8th,i think. miss me!
hahas.it means i wont be around for atiqa's burfdae.uh well.will celebrate a lil whenn i return i guess..i think i really should go.
time check- 4:13 am
If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away Can't stop the tears from running down my face All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm lost without you I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you .
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
4:13 AM
