Tuesday, November 16, 2004
its already like the third dae of hari raya and im still not getting any.haha.kaes rubbish.well yeaa.the first day of hari raya was great laaa. i woke up at like 8 pluss and went online..and then mummy ask to bath so i bath laa..and then i changed into home clothes cus my father and uncle and brothers still not back from the prayerss ryte then i watched tv..dunno wat show also siaah..haha..then they returned so i got changeed..wore my purple baju kurung.love it siiah.well yeaa then we went to my granny's house which is the same blk as mine laa..and my granny gave me like a whole paper bag of gifts..haha..so sweet of her..and then my uncle fetched us..with the new carr..siallah i love that car can..beautifully elegent. and we went to my granmere's house in siglap...it was raining then and we had to get the car into the house or else we will be drenched right so while trying to get the car into the house,it hit the gate.haha..and there was a slight scratch on the carr but whatever la.and hiash the sad part.my granny was like crying siaah when my mum met her asking for forgiveness..why u ask me.cus of some ungrateful uncles and aunti i have. i mean,my grandmere give them money to survive siaah and mind u,alot of money and they dont even come to visit her on hari raya! basket right.so surely she feel down right.haiz.but there is nothing anyone can do to stop them i guess.they are adults.old adults i tell u canr rhey even think for themselves?and then people started coming to her house and all..and we left at like 4 plus only and start visiting..there was like my parents my aunt my uncle my 2 brother and my cousin. as obviously we cant fit into the car laa ryte so me and my brothers had to take cab.for me for only once.haha..i act2 tired laa then got to sit in the car.overall first dae was fun except for the fact that some people dont appreciate my granny at all.i hate this people k.cus i love my granny alot and ya so do my mum..well ooh yea then after we left my auntie's house we wanted to go to my uncle's house which was nearby laa..and it was like 10 plus almost 11 but they were not at home yet and they told us to go there late late.. so we went to my house and ate ate ate..and one of my auntiee came..and then we watched tv..until like 12 plus we were like lets go to my uncle's house since he say go there late late right..haha..and we reached there at like one i think..sat there..chit chat..and then i realised that the other time when i and fana and mice and feeza and fiza went to simei that night just to meet some guys haha it was my unlcle's block siall..haha..ofcourse never tell anyone laa..and then we got home..slept at like 3 plus..and my untie and uncle sleep at my house..
second dae which is yesterdae laa right was shitty i tell u.woke up late at like 1 plus..and my auntie uncle father brother all went out alreadie..then i went online..went to bath..and my auntie called sae wanted to fetched us..so yeaa..waited waite waited until like five plus then they came..got changed prayed and all..and we went outz...went to only 2 house laa..then we went to my granmere house in siglap..and she got really sick.its scary i tell u.i get really scared when my granny's ill.cus my chances are my mummy will get sick too.cus she love her mummy like alot. and well yeaa...she was super sick.kaes i think i said that laa but yeaa it was scary.and then my granny was crying all the way.makes my mum cry.and when i saw my mum so sad i started to cry.i mean,i was so scared.of what,i think u noe.but yeaa.and my mummy and auntie was by her side when she was lying down..my auntie was almost crying too.tears in her eyes but she was strong,fight it back.she was suppose to go back to kl that night.with my father and uncle.so i guess she dont want to make things worse by telling my granny.and then my mum asked me to call my house and talk to samir telling him that we arent going home and there is food and all..but instead my father picked up the fone.and he started scolding me. and i started crying..couldnt talk to him cus of the tears and asked my mum to talked..and fuck la they started quarreling..stupid siaah.make me cry more.and then my mum was like we have to go home..by thattime grandmere was alreadie sleeping.so we left.with my auntie my uncle and my cousin.i was crying all the way siaal.and when reached home it suck laa.i just wished i didnt go home.my parents didnt talk to each other.and my father called me and ask me where is the pants he asked to be ironed.and my mum took it but it was a little wrinkled so she ironed somemore. then my father asked me if iron alreadie i sae just a minute and he was like "nvm..i dun need use that pants.." and i started crying more..i mean,it hurts k when they are fighting and i am in the middle.and to make things worst today's my father's burfdae.and when they left yesterdae i was like jus crying like nobody's business.and my auntie hugged me she sae "dun worry everything is okae"..and i wonder,how long that will take to subside.its like when something's getting right,something has to happen to hurt me more.i am sick of this.i want to be happy.to be care free.i have everything, family,friends u name it.and yet i am not happy.perharps cus i am not devoted to god.i try to be.but somethings,i just cannopt help it.
look i was babbling away but hey that is really the situation of my life.such a mess.no broom to sweep it all away. haha.k rubbish.but yea.was talking to farhan.he rocks laa.haha.and also to sarah nyet.she rocks too! kaes its just that there's no one else online laa.where is dhea?she ah..at times like this she will dissapper.as in celebration time.heh. miss you laa.kaes rubbish siall
k laa.BYE!shmuakxx! =)
somebody save me;
i'm not crazy or anything.
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